The Room of Cadbury Milk Chocolates

Monday, February 13, 2006

got all wet at Beacon's today cos they said all workers get it and mine was long overdue cos i've been there for weeks! *watever* anyway, we had fun getting everyone wet (me first of course, with ice water) - Ben's "great" idea, think we were grabbing at each other and ending up all wet.

church: again, we have to change leaders! again!!! this time we'll be under Karen Wong, cos Jasmine is "not coming back for sometime" which I interpreted as "forever". seriously, I thought my relationship with Jasmine was improving but now, I just lost all respect for her. I don't understand why she chose to leave church and do whatever she chose to do...parental objection? i think its more than that.

no, i'm not angry or hate her or what, just feel numbed already..I have not had a proper leader since Josh.(sec 4) it was because of all these re-re-re-restructuring that almost got me changing churches. and I haven't been growing much spiritually until recently...but somehow, God told me to stay (esp the time when Jean left), and I obeyed.

anyway through all the "tough times" that Jasmine went through, it was a time when the girls got together and bonded! amazing how things can change even in such circumstances, i still remember how distant we all were when we first joined YC.......

just pray that the girls will uphold each other and that we'll be able to bond with Karen Wong and her girls, should be fine I guess, since one or two is also in YA (thank God for YA!)...:) and I find Karen approachable as well!

family: so pissed with my parents, they just cannot stop quarelling over money (like...forever?), dad is not moving on with his business and makes useless trips to Malaysia for Goodness-knows-what! and mum just cannot stop criticising (everyone at home - that's why i just want to get out of the house whenever she's home...) Every week, pastors' messages are just another blame-and-shame session. thought of putting what I learnt in mediation but instead of answering my questions, dad went on to defend himself and they ended up quarreling (again and again and again). '*door slams..hard*

I REALLY CANNOT BE BOTHERED ANYMORE!

seriously, i told Sylvia that I rather they got separated than make all of us go through daily torture. oh whatever, i've given up asking God to help them because it has just been dragging on for so long, I think personally, I've given up on them.

Now, I just want to finish my finals this February, apply to NIE and hope for a successful entry, get a job to support me after Poly ends.. As for other matters, they can wait.. God will make a way.

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