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Wednesday, May 31, 2006

Amen! my application with MOE is finally solved - no more impending allowance for 2 months or watever nonsense. I can finally start my relief teaching proper in Haig Girls'....*happiness* which means I can finally get paid too:)

ps: this is the first time i get such a quick response from the ministry, heh, thank God for his abundance and blessings:)

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Tuesday, May 30, 2006

you know what, NTU students have a kick in writing to forums. Yesterday a friend encouraged me to write in to forum to complain about my NIE application because she thought it was ridiculous that they didn't even give me any chance but kept giving the excuse that they had an "over-whelming intake" blah blah... i was laughing at the idea la, how troublesome it would be. having 2nd thoughts though haha.

Then just today, after my encounter with the airport police at the pass counter, my colleague also encouraged me to write in to forum about the "NS mentality". hmph, thinking about the trauma I went through just makes me pissed. these pple couldn't find my IC this morning when I went to exchange my pass with them, they insisted that it wasn't their fault and it was dunno what team B and since they are team E then it's nothing to do with them blah blah.

the NS mentality:
1)it's not my fault, it was another team.
2)blame anyone possible (in this case they tried to push the blame to me, i laughed into his face la)
3)the pass is from drawer A so if your IC is not in drawer A then don't have lor - followed by THE *blank look*
(such flexibility, impressive)

crap, then what am i supposed to do???

next, he made a few calls (action action only lar) then turned back to me to say that his colleguae claimed that it wasn't his fault. so now what, they say this so they are right la?! why shouldn't I be the right one? one of them even asked me to check my wallet, "just in case". nonsense lar these pple, their number 1 condition states so clearly that in order to exchange for a pass, we have to give them our ICs, no more no less. (not even passports can!)

hello, obviously i got the pass, so guess who got my IC?

I already have a bad impression of the airport police, seriously, they have at least 2-3 guys to man a counter with a computer, a telephone and some passes (tag holders) and yet they cannot even handle this situation properly.

after standing infront of the counter for 30 Minutes they invited me to take a seat, then managed to find my IC in one of the cubicles, obviously NOT drawer A as they claimed earlier. hmph, the meanest of them all didn't even apologise :(

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asked mum how to write in to forum, she had a good laugh abt my fight-back with them abt their rule abt exchanging IC for pass. their own rules also dun understand, want to tell others to obey, bullshit. seems like my dad is the pro in writing in to forums sia, amazing right? (he just needs some help in editing haha) i think i'll ask him when I have enough sleep and overcome that 50 minute trauma.

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oohohohohohoh!!!! i'm going to bangkok on 15june to 18june again!!!! hahaa.. yes AGAIN must be emphasised but this time its with the whole family, which means i'm sure to go even MadDER shopping and shopping and shopping! (since the money supply is not exactly limited this time - walking atms oops)

oh by the way, mad shopping runs in our blood, wait til u see my mum shop haha. :)

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Monday, May 29, 2006

wah so much to say today but anyway...

yay! i'm going to kbox with feli and steph, our second date this month (after our ding tai fung hot yummy date)

haha, see u girls :)

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kids these days. cannot punish, cannot scold, cannot beat, cannot, cannot, CANNOT!

pui, my foot ah! look at (most) kids these days...

when i was a kid, i never recalled any other kids talking back to their teachers. why? because when we were naughty our teachers punished us in such a way that made sure we never repeated any bad habits. ever.

when teachers scold, or even if anyone else scold us!(not only teachers) we simply take it as a process of learning. result: see what good kids my generation ARE then u'll understand la, really, for eg, i'm a good kid leh. haha

now, we have to scold them in a proper manner. what "soft approach" watever crap, if it doesn't work then what? u continue to be nice then get walked over meh?! kids these days are good at bullying u regardless of gender or age ok.. anyway it's not like the soft approach works what.

even a friend mentioned today, our present generation's attitudes these days really cannot make it!

i say, spare the rod and u get shit kids. seriously, they will say what they want, do what they like, with no respect or sensitivity whatsoever, and then teachers get the sack for even touching them. even the word 'sorry' is dirt cheap these days, is there any difference in saying sorry and not saying it? pple know whether u really mean it lor.

hmph,what would u do? if these kids were out there somewhere they would have gotten slapped, punched and kicked at already. feel like doing it all the time (esp with this 8 year old boy i'm giving tuition to, who is absolutely hyperactive, talkative and cannot sit still for a whole 5 minutes), but since i have super high tolerance and control, i try to 'teach' them with words, chay also dun work! tell him to shut up also cannot cos he thinks it's funny (but at least he will be a LITTLE more obedient because seems like i'm more stern with him by telling him to shuttup haha), sigh how leh? i'm practically holding him down physically for 1.5 hours, faints.

oh, even the 2 words "shut up" take on different meanings. like to my 8 year old kid, it's funny but seems to help the situation. to others it means i'm being Mean but is there any lesson learnt from it at all? my "shut up" is for educational purposes lor...haha

at least my 8 year old kid survived it...also it's easier to say "shut up" instead of "please can you stop talking rubbish?" 2 vs 6 words. and saying the 6 nicer words (3x the breath wasted also leh) may not even have any effect at all, sorry but i'll stick with my "Shut up" even if it means i'm being mean. it works all the time anyway.

heh heh heh *evil laughter*

good luck to all my tuition kids.

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Sunday, May 28, 2006

jasmine and i used to always say that the buggers in the world should be deported and kept together so they can irritate the hell of each other ALL they want. that used to be the days of my poly life. we would stick together with our pathetic bunch of guy friends who disappeared and re-appeared as they wished for lectures and lunch.

besides hanging out with the smokers and breathing in 2nd hand smoke, we basically isolated ourselves and made ourselves very happy saying what a loser's life they all had. oh did i mention some of them were students by day and rockers by night?or the fella who got caught by CNB for doing drugs at a staircase,who ended up under probation, chain smoker,cough syrup abuser and alcoholic?or the good boy who was leader of this student group and that student group but ultimately the worst student academically? by the way the drug addict managed to graduate but the good boy didn't.

or the girl who has the strictest father on earth but got kicked out of school cos she spends more time hanging around the corridor for this guy she likes to appear, instead of attending classes?or another girl who thinks she's got everything-brains and bawls,but nothing except for changing bfs one after another(u find that everywhere in poly anyway...)? (well maybe she thinks she's smart cos she gets the rich ones i guess hahahah)

i miss school, not poly life per se but the friends i made and simply just the life of a poly student. sigh, still wish i had gone to jc then to a proper entry to uni. i think i would have loved the life of a uni student, hostel life and all.

anyway, graduation ceremony on the 8th June at 2pm - will it clash with camp hur? and there's work too, haha we'll see.

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Wednesday, May 24, 2006

after the one-day stint at Haig Girls' Primary, I still want to work towards a career in teaching. it's not only about the good pay and short working hours (7am-1pm) but I just enjoy being in a class, whether it is to teach or to babysit, whichever they call it.

I've been thinking, if I stay in Haig Girls' it'll be for quite a period of time, thus allowing me to gain the experience that I require in order to qualify for the BA course in SIM that I wanted all along. it's a bonus that the colleagues there are nice and helpful, time passes quickly and it can be a platform for me to reach out to more girls. anyway, yin ping and yan fang were really helpful today since it was my first day in their school - they were entertaining me with their stories of their first-days-in-school and how she was a crybaby blah blah...

the only hiccups: bus 33 was late (we waited for 30 minutes and ended up taking bus 16 which meant that we had to walk extra distance); my application of 2 months old encountered problems (i dunno if it's just the system or MOE just against me, urgh, even my application to NIE always has super delayed replies. direct calls to them don't help much either,pui) which means my pay will have to be delayed.

It seems like the choosing of my career path is a testing of my faith. despite all the horrible hiccups and disappointments so far, I still believe wholeheartedly that God has pathed out the way which I wanted all along. feels like there's been a battle going on, Haig Girls' replied only on my third attempt and the application with MOE is still going through some system checks.

ah, anyway, just trust in Him. I just know everything will turn out just the way it was planned to be.

right, time to go back to work :)

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Monday, May 22, 2006

i always thought i was quite good in Pool, but after today's game with zhifeng, i shall go box myself later for being haolian. despite my taiko-ness today, i still lost to him. to think i told him the last time we met up (which was last month), that if he could beat me 10 times in a row then he will be ready for THE competition-i am going to box myself another time for this because i think he really is competition-material already:( i only managed to redeem myself with the last 9-ball game because i am the taiko queen after all.

still, it's always great fun with him. in fact, he's my best pool mate and the only one who has a car to fetch me home(haha)-all my girlfriends can't play for nuts, or the small handful of them (i can only think of steph for now..hmm) just have no time to meet up with me :(:(

our meetups are always great - the things we talk about-from Jean to boys and girls to my faith(which he always tell me jokingly to give up) to food and back to gf/bf stuff again, his cheeky antics, and every/anything else i missed out.

we were just talking abt girls being picky about choosing boyfriends which i agreed to the extent of 50%.

i mean, maybe fickle maybe but picky? not me i think cos i'm confirm fickle - too many to choose from maybe? or i just can't be bothered, really i also dunno.

ok, this brings me back to the time i was telling syl that every girl should have a checklist of what she wants in the One-think i even had an entry about it.

i think i should make a rough checklist to hear some opinions if any? (it's ranked accordingly)
1)must pass in the looks department - which isn't that difficult either (really, i still agree that looks are not everything and that outer beauty fades blah blah BUT come on, be true to yourself la, human nature takes the looks factor very seriously)
2)higher spiritual maturity, to me it's not just about believing in the same God and higher means there'll be someone to lead me somehow haha.
3)taller than me duh
4)can speak better Cantonese than me, so can sing canto ktv with me (dun sneer cos i'm super serious lor)

eh what else huh, give suggestions leh.

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aiya whatever la, anyway at most go for match making hor, like the korean girl in LOST season 2 one of the episodes, her match-made date was super smart, rich and good looking.

oh well, u never know right:) anyway to those LOST fans out there, sorry for the little spoiler there but it's a must-catch episode all the same:):):)

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Settlers' Cafe is getting to me - learning to love Bang! Went today (again) to play, but the crowd was a little too big (abt 12) so could not play many games. oh well, we kept playing Bang! (something like murder!) :) think we'll be going there quite alot!
*thanks mr sky for sending us home even though u were tired and carrying so many thing - super man~~~!

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supposed to witness Ah Ma's baptism but ended up watching some kind of soap opera. the other half of the family opposed violently to her baptism and kept blaming 'us', saying that we co-erced her into accepting salvation and the baptism thing. i seriously have no idea what's going on because they were all shouting and pushing blame here and there, and mum is frustrated because she thinks/feels that she is being blamed the mostly for everything that happened (gender issues - sons can bring ah ma to church, daughters cannot) , and it goes down to us-sigh. hmm, dun even understand why my grandma didn't even bother to say anything despite the hot discussions. (shouldn't she say something since she is the Main topic of the day????) anyway the Others just said that because Ah Ma had some kind of dedication to the temple god previously, if she breaks it then her descendants (which is the rest of us) will be damned for life. Then they scolded us for bringing Ah Ma to church secretly even though they also did the exact thing when Ah Ma had the bond thing with the temple. aiya, more siao than days of our lives.

Date postponed for furthur 'discussions' so NOW, Just need to pray now for her confirmation! pls help to pray ok!

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SOL3 started today, i like my class alot cos there are so many familiar and friendly faces. of course, having some er-hms in class is even better...heh anyway, in SOL3 the things we're taught are more real and deeper as compared to SOL2.. the class was really compact and the 2 hours went by sooooo quickly - also, pastor victor made the lesson fun and easy to understand. hmm.... wondering what project we'll be given this time...hmm(recall the treasure hunt thing)

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when i was jobless, my chances of getting jobs seemed so pathetic despite all the resumes i sent out. Now, seems like NIE will only take me in next year, I have to make further plans:( AND suddenly, all the jobs that I would love to take on seem to be pouring in, wails!
1) currently: airport job every night 11pm-7am (rather slack)
2) tuition assignments
3) possible position as teacher in Haig Girls' (trying out on tuesday)
4) possible position as an perm events planner for Girls' Brigade - Mickey's mum giving me priority for the job, have to go through interview first. Perks: can travel 3-4 times a year, Diploma's pay, stable job of 8am-5pm, get to work with young girls.

super confused now.

what should i do?

faints.

faints..

faints...

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Thursday, May 18, 2006

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Sunday, May 14, 2006

Melaka! retreat updates: expected some physical training (actually more on losing weight) but ended up gorging on 5-star breakfast, lunch AND dinner for 4days,3nights. *faints i gained a kilo and a half:(:(:( and the 4hour discovery walk we had in our area was so tiring cos I forgot to bring proper shoes and ended up dragging my feet around in the new pair of white slippers i got from Bangkok earlier on. sigh, my calves hurt like crazy.

amazing fact no. 1: I (the sleep at 2am and get up at 11am fella) managed to get up at 5.15am every morning and be down at ballroom by 6am sharp for worship+solitude without falling asleep for even a second. Vivien is a very good human alarm, haha. *now i have to re-tune my sleep clock for my night shift work at changi, bah*

Was put under Pastor Kelly's group for this re-encounter, really enjoyed the little time we had over meals and our chendol break; and conversations with her. Besides Pastor FeiFei, she's the next person (I think)who really has a heart for people. She was always so cheerful (even though the weather was making us go almost mad), at the end of the day she gave every member a card with both pastor victor's and her face on it.

delighting fact no.1: the chendol is super ordinary except for the gula that made it so shiok! the cost price of RM2 made it even better:)

see, just looking at it makes u feel so good already. the uncle said his was the best and even offered extra gula syrup for us to indulge in. haha.

we also had the famous chicken rice balls everyone in melaka were talking about. the chicken was tender and the veggies tasted smooth, but the main dish was B.a.d - the rice balls tasted squashed together and were soggy and tastless. yucks, i think i ate 5 balls cos cannot waste la - hmm think the shop name is FAMOUSA chicken rice balls, bleah.

that's pastor kelly and Loy(one of my groupmates) - he's under pastor victor. i think their tribe are a very happy bunch of pple, always smiling.

pS:pastor kelly so cute right?

THEN comes the formal dinner. had to learn waltz (beginner's only la) in 15 minutes. think very difficult cos all the guys were so much taller(than me), then cannot balance properly haha. anyway I really thought it was really fun (the dressing up part) until we had to go into the ballroom for the real thing. the roses la, cheeeeessssy note that comes along with the note, the gentlemen thing (pulling chair in-and-out for the ladies, serving us food), the "may i have the honour to dance with u" line, the i-cannot-reject-any-guy-who-asks-for-a-dance mindset that we were adviced to embrace wholeheartedly, the bow-and-curtsy thing after every dance, FAINTS. my guy partner was super serious and I just kept laughing from the start, super cheesy:/ but i think he's quite a pro cos he got the appropriate amount of dinner for me - Pastor Jeffrey was teaching this guy at my table how to get food for this girl because that guy got too much food for her and she didn't finish la, think it's enough to feed a cow, pengs.

anyway had FUN somehow la. although i was super sleepy after dinner and wanted to go back to the hotel room to sleep, I suddenly realised that the guys in youthnet 288 were quite good-looking, but so many married or attached already(Viv said,haha) and so i stayed to look and observe . . . . .

haha, kidding. not entirely the main reason i stayed.

oh well, going to play with Daren tmr:) he's FOUR months already!!!!and weighs a good 7.3kg (i think) so better carry him b4 he gets toooo heavy for me:)

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Wednesday, May 10, 2006

6th May: thanks to Pastors and fellow DG brothers and sisters for the surprise birthday cake and very thoughtful card:) cake: black forest

7th May: thanks to my darling sister syl,lijuan,hewyenn,winnie,sky,andrew,kenny,joyce and pastor for opening Magic box to give me a surprise:):) cake: choco truffle. and I love the present so so so much!! just found out from jean that she was eyeing that dress too!!! this is a trial picture on how it looks.

i look spastic in the picture cos was squinting (no specs) - dots. anyway its really pretty :) thanks guys!

8th May: Went kbox with nicole and chris - had fun! thanks chris and cat for the princess tshirt! no-one will dare call me a maid anymore, haha. nicole and i went mad acting out the song lyrics while singing. think the china waiter quite cute, but super naggy - he told us that if we needed help we could dial '0' - think he said almost 10 times. ooh, the fruit punch and chicken chop was yummy :) we sang from 7[m to 1.30am, record time! cake: choco opera swiss baked cake:):):)

9th May: had lunch at airport T2 fish and co with Sam wong and Jean:) thanks Sam AND jean for the treat!

10th May: going to kbox with syl,jed,hewyenn,winnie tmr:) think i'm going mad kboxing!

THANKS to everyone who made my 20th birthday really memorable! i never had so many pple smsing and wishing me(even my cousin in Aussie, thanks Gracia), think my phone went abit kookoo again :) thank God for all of you!

ps: thanks to lijuan for the personalised card and to zc for the anime figure present.

and i think i will HAVE to bring my running attire to MUAR because of all the extra pounds i gained the past week! *faints*

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Wednesday, May 03, 2006

Pamelia Soh reporting from Changi Airport Terminal 1 Nexus Lunge Free internet terminal :)
Just finished my shift from 5pm-10pm, spent the last one hour and a half eating my free fruit pastry from Delifrance and talking crap with Raj and Jean, the pple on shift at T1. what fun, I am going to stay over at the rest lounge tonight cos i've got another shift tomorrow morning from 7am-3pm. feels like i'm at camp, heh!

i do hope syl, sky, andrew n kenny are enjoying MI3, oh, actually should be enjoy. sky owes me big cos i gave up my free ticket for him cos i got work, so heh heh, SKY gotta see this!!!!

alrighty, i'll go crap somemore with em, wash up, get a few winks b4 going to Mac to take pictures with jean, then sleep b4 i get ready for my next shift.

like my life? i'm lurving it :)

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Finally, the exam that got me super(x100000) worried is over! the examiners were really friendly although I was eating my words and sounded whimpy :( anyway, its one female and one male examiner - add their ages together and the result will be 6 times mine, haha.

Oh well, thank God for everything to run so smoothly today:) even the taxi uncles who fetched me to and fro were super cartoon! (the one who fetched me home was a hongkonger who's accent sounded so familiar... I wanted to laugh out loud la! and we were talking about homosexuals and gays - especially with the recent report that some guy killed a male prostitute because he didn't want to continue whatever they were doing,if u know what i mean...then we went on to talk about music and how he had Filipino girlfriends, not maids mind YOU.)

Also, even though the examiner, Mr King was really really tall, (he seemed 2 floors tall to me!)his friendly and gentle approach made up for it - Mrs Murray was a little more strict ;( - think she sounded a little impatient when i couldn't answer the way she was expecting.......

the topics which came up were spot-on questions by my teacher (also jean's teacher) - even though I didn't answer very very very well cos i was tongue-tied and freezing (hm exam halls are always freezing!), at least i explained briefly, hopefully i'll get at least a pass. thanks jean for introducing me her teacher, Mr Sayson, who is super helpful and talented and zai! he even sent me an encouraging sms and last minute tips to 'cheat' in sight-reading (play with lots of expression and feeling and continue the flow) haha, i think i did pretty well for that :) - good thing its a romantic piece. i don't know how to add expression if it's a piece from Mozart. *pengs*

whew, so relieved ::back to my hk serials AGAIN!! yippee!!!

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