The Room of Cadbury Milk Chocolates

Sunday, November 19, 2006

feeling cranky today, maybe it was because had to wake up early for the cc thing. maybe i feel like there's no one i can really talk to/with. or maybe i just dun feel like saying anything. it's too much trouble. or it may just be the many problems that seem to be happening around me and somehow i get involved. or maybe as you get older, things get/seem complicated. it's never within our control is it? it seemed so long ago when i could be carefree like a child, and just enjoy being embraced by our Daddy up there. maybe that's why i adore the girls in school, such childlike joy that i kinda envy sometimes, no worldly worries, the never ending love they are so willing to receive and give.

ah, maybe i just need something a change somewhere in my life. guess it's just the holiday mood setting in, need to go run more to clear my mind.

and i think i still appreciate being left alone sometimes (or most of the time) and not having to take the effort to make conversations with anyone. but i guess that's not completely possible, one day i should just shut my phone and go somewhere no one can contact me, then i'll cycle down someplace and just chill. gosh this idea is so tempting, just to get away from it all. one day...

haha i apologise if i seem to be behaving wierd this week, just need to relax. i rather not think or talk abt anything at all. there's no big problems, just need to not think too much. like pastor said, we are too educated for our own good. why do we have to think so logically for everything? nah i'm not a thinker, more like a stoner. its just those days.

well well i guess when i'm settled with whatever i'm thinking then i think i'll be back to normal.
what's my normal self anyway?

no worries it's just one of those bad seasons i have to get over and done with.

i like pussycat dolls and hoegarden. yea.

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