The Room of Cadbury Milk Chocolates

Sunday, June 24, 2007

soon, school will start. i'm scared, what if i can't cope after a year's long break i took from school? what if my uni life is as boring as my poly life? will the friends i make in school be nice? i don't know, but really just trust God for everything. I have no choice, if I don't trust God at this point, i'm just going to fail big time. and this time, uni is very important and crucial to me, and i dun want to 'breeze through' like i did in poly. they say one mistake leads on to another, this time no more mistakes. ah, i'll be pulling yeow yeow to go and study at the airport very often, i foresee...

b4 i get myself ready for school, i've been looking back in the past year - family, church, friends, they've all changed. my parents haven changed much, besides the usual quarrels abt the same things for the 'past 20 years' (as i quote my mum) and all kinds of businesses they venture in and out of, at least i feel that my relationship with my siblings have improved. i love my brother, for being irritating sometimes in such a smart way that i dunno how to answer him. and my sister, no choice lar, same room - everything also will know, somehow. church, moving powerfully, i do feel lagging behind. i know i am growing spiritually, as compared to the past, i can hear God. but as what pastor mentioned today, if i want to grow more, i have to go! of course, fear is always present, personally though i signed up for 100k, i still ask for strength from God to succeed. friends, made new ones, seen old ones and understood them better.....there's just no time to catch up with all!!! :( some, though we seldom meet, they still feel close to my heart. some, i used to think were pple i could share my heart too, now feel so faraway. like i was talking to my sis on the train abt pple in church we call 'friends', i sounded as if i didn't like them. it may sound as if it is the case, but what do u mean 'u like' and what do u mean by 'u don't like'? it's more like the things they do rather then the person. anyway, just feels like church friends are not as close as b4. i can't talk to them like i used to. i dun feel as comfortable as being with them, it all seems to be getting so cliquish. sigh, maybe its me who has changed more? hah, whatever the case, at least i know who i can call and that's most important to me, i guess.

i also thank God for the wonderful stint i had as a RT. was wonderful because I made new little 'friends' - wonder if we'll still keep in contact as they grow older. some are really so sweet! and i def understood more abt the whole system. colleagues were pleasant enough, and i do hope to hang out with some of them soon!

oh, i realised that i've bcome more sensitive and teary lately, when i'm both feeling down or glad, it just...happens lor. aiya, must be the korean dramas i've been watching. ha, ain't going to stop!

well well, whatever the case. i'm looking forward to orientation. oh God, pls pls pls make it fun! that i'll never forget - i want a happening uni life! haha:)

wanted to post photos but links not working properly. sigh, internet so lousy, hopefully school internet rawks. that's all for now, photos another day.

ohoh! welcome mr andrew khong back:):) we can't wait to go 'swimming' soon:)

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